Thursday, June 04, 2009
Work Started
work for jack movie has started. working on a new genre that i have not tried before. that’s horror. i dont watch horror movies so for me to do horror is quite a challenge. and furthermore, we shooting in the jungle. probably physically quite draining for a girl. but so far so good. i quite surprised at my own stamina too.
MY thoughts on the matter
i had a surprise call on sun. came as a shock to me that she will call me to ask me to meet her. i thot she will just reply my email at the most. i wasnt very sure how i feel when i saw her name on my phone. seem weird to me... feel strange. she say we should meet up cause she dun want me to hearsay from others what had happened. she want to meet also cause of a conversation i had with her with regards to someone. she told me she still believe what i said during our last conversation. she told me it a problem between us and the problems are different from what others felt.
i dun know what to decipher from these words. Is the problems what i had been thinking all along?
i told her i can meet her today but she sms me she cant meet late last night cause she rushing a report. I understand. we will meet up after the 26th, after my shoot. frankly speaking, i cant wait to hear what she has to say. i just very curious. To me, she had never seem possessive towards friends. i do know that she does take care of me like a sister. so maybe when ‘he’ appears, her role as a sister becomes lessen and she dun feel good abt it? also probably she doesnt like the fact that we stop communicating to each other after a while. I talk much less to her during the shoot. that i know for sure. or maybe she feel the stress when i scold others and others tell her abt it.
let see what happen when we meet. i also told myself that i will keep cool. i will not be angry. cause things are over. no point getting angry abt it. we both are tired, stress, angry at that time so we both cant think straight. now after few mths apart, probably things will be better.
*cross my fingers and toes* i truly hope things will be better and we will still be friends.
i dun know what to decipher from these words. Is the problems what i had been thinking all along?
i told her i can meet her today but she sms me she cant meet late last night cause she rushing a report. I understand. we will meet up after the 26th, after my shoot. frankly speaking, i cant wait to hear what she has to say. i just very curious. To me, she had never seem possessive towards friends. i do know that she does take care of me like a sister. so maybe when ‘he’ appears, her role as a sister becomes lessen and she dun feel good abt it? also probably she doesnt like the fact that we stop communicating to each other after a while. I talk much less to her during the shoot. that i know for sure. or maybe she feel the stress when i scold others and others tell her abt it.
let see what happen when we meet. i also told myself that i will keep cool. i will not be angry. cause things are over. no point getting angry abt it. we both are tired, stress, angry at that time so we both cant think straight. now after few mths apart, probably things will be better.
*cross my fingers and toes* i truly hope things will be better and we will still be friends.
2008 reflections & 2009 resolutions
QUOTE OF THE DAY: 'There are 2 sides to every coin'.
2008.
Not a good year for me, i feel. I’m someone who feeds a lot on energy and vibes from people around me so when my friends deserted me, I was lost . But then again, whatever doesnt kill me will make me stronger ya? So yes, I think I have survived it. It takes a lot of time. Have I found my piece of mind, my sanity? I’m not sure. But what I can say is this, i dont care now. All I care now is myself. Making myself happy is good enough. :)
Some people would feel why I didnt explain myself. But i dont feel the need to. They have the right to say whatever they want. I will only explain my side of the story if people asked. Friends who knows me will know there is always two sides to the coin, ie: 2 sides of the story.
2009.
This year is supposed to be my last year in freelance. I want to do projects that I want to do, that i believed in. Movies is still my interest. Now is a matter of doing the different genres, like horror or filming at difficult locations. So hopefully my projects gets confirmed faster as people starts to get more optimistic about the economy. I’m starting to get bored.
Told Brenda that the next movie I’m doing is horror. And its a story that all of us believed that its true. She seem not so keen for me to do it (i think cause of what happen in Funeral Party). But i think that is a isolated case la. People on that set are all quite crazy. And this time round, I’m working with people I dont know except for the director. So that might be better. New environment, New working colleagues.
Yes, I’m still quite concerned abt T. I did wanted to ask Brenda how is she few days back but never seem to be able to get it out of my mouth. So i’m glad I asked today. Somehow i know she will called Brenda. At least she will still ask about me. Maybe to ask if I’m still alive, still surviving or not. Well, we see how the situation goes. I dont hope for anything/miracle. Even if T talks to me again, things will not be the same. I quite sure abt that.
I just want to clear this misunderstanding and at least what the hell happened.
2008.
Not a good year for me, i feel. I’m someone who feeds a lot on energy and vibes from people around me so when my friends deserted me, I was lost . But then again, whatever doesnt kill me will make me stronger ya? So yes, I think I have survived it. It takes a lot of time. Have I found my piece of mind, my sanity? I’m not sure. But what I can say is this, i dont care now. All I care now is myself. Making myself happy is good enough. :)
Some people would feel why I didnt explain myself. But i dont feel the need to. They have the right to say whatever they want. I will only explain my side of the story if people asked. Friends who knows me will know there is always two sides to the coin, ie: 2 sides of the story.
2009.
This year is supposed to be my last year in freelance. I want to do projects that I want to do, that i believed in. Movies is still my interest. Now is a matter of doing the different genres, like horror or filming at difficult locations. So hopefully my projects gets confirmed faster as people starts to get more optimistic about the economy. I’m starting to get bored.
Told Brenda that the next movie I’m doing is horror. And its a story that all of us believed that its true. She seem not so keen for me to do it (i think cause of what happen in Funeral Party). But i think that is a isolated case la. People on that set are all quite crazy. And this time round, I’m working with people I dont know except for the director. So that might be better. New environment, New working colleagues.
Yes, I’m still quite concerned abt T. I did wanted to ask Brenda how is she few days back but never seem to be able to get it out of my mouth. So i’m glad I asked today. Somehow i know she will called Brenda. At least she will still ask about me. Maybe to ask if I’m still alive, still surviving or not. Well, we see how the situation goes. I dont hope for anything/miracle. Even if T talks to me again, things will not be the same. I quite sure abt that.
I just want to clear this misunderstanding and at least what the hell happened.
Shanghai
I was in Shanghai recently for about 2 weeks. Many people ask me ‘How’s Shanghai’? I seriously didnt do anything much there. Mainly chilling out, watching lots of HK TV serial. I think it really a holiday for me to relax and rest my mind. Since i can feel the strain when i did Love Matters. Mainly it a mentally strain and of course physically tired. I seldom fell sick before a shoot ended.
So about Shanghai. What strike me most about that place is its people. Most Shanghainese can speak a good deal of English. I think it cause of the 2008 Olympics and also more china people are getting richer and more exposed to the ang moh culture and language.
So about Shanghai. What strike me most about that place is its people. Most Shanghainese can speak a good deal of English. I think it cause of the 2008 Olympics and also more china people are getting richer and more exposed to the ang moh culture and language.
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