it hurts.

It hurts... and it hurts badly. It so bad that I had to run away... run away to work in a totally new environment and hopefully for a long period of time too. I dont understand why people had to do this. Why must they judge me like this? It hurts that someone i trusted so much had turned her back on me.

When i heard what Bee told me, I was speechless and then the reality hits me. I wanted to cry... my voice was breaking and I know Bee knows. I tried to shield them from Glen, protect them from Glen yelling. But in the end, what do i get??? All i get is my so called friends saying that I'm sucking up to Glen. Up till today, my heart still aches when I think about it. I know I not the same anymore. I not so happy anymore. No more happy go lucky weiwei cause this incident really affects me greatly. I dont know when i will recover from it. It makes it worse cause I feel that Brenda also think that I'm wrong.

But seriously what is wrong with me knowing another guy? What is wrong with me getting involved with a man? Is it so wrong for me to find someone else attractive other than always hanging out with my friends. They think that my work is affected cause of him. I still dont see it leh. I did what i suppose to do. We are all professional and i expect the things to be done when i told them about it. How many times do i need to say it? how many times do i need to repeat myself? They cant expect the whole production to be runned like for drama.

i feel that my heart is dead. I too hurt by this. i dont want to say or do anything anymore.