i dont know what i feeling now. it seem to be a combination of feelings. I feeling anxiety about the project and also in quite panic mode cause it starting soon. Flustered, irriated and confused about my relationship with him. I know some people might call this PMS?? or maybe not. I think it a woman symptons. :)
some of my close friends would know that i kinda of have a falling out with my 人字旁. Happen about 2 months ago. So we didnt meet for at least 2 months and only maybe communicate thru msn twice during the 2 mths. But cause my sister bought some things, meant to sell at his shop. so i have to meet him as my sis is on holiday in hk. it feels weird esp after not seeing each other for a while. the feeling is like 'seem a lot of things to ask and say, but nothing seem to come out'. i know both of us just dont know how to start on that topic why we fall out.
His friend was around too. He even ask me why havent seen me for so long. Aks me if i have decided to abandon them. My answer was I'm busy'. But his friend dont believe. In the end, i have to tell him, you guys are very busy too mah. No time for me. Cause that what my 人字旁 will always say to me.
Out of the blue during our meeting, he said something about 'dating without commitments'. Said he only learn about it recently from friends. People priority changes as we aged. I think if i'm 5yrs younger, i would agree that's good. But for me, i like commitments. it equal to a sense of security, a sense of peace. I'm tired. very tired of this more than a friend, less than a girlfriend sort of relationship.
