i dont know what i feeling now. it seem to be a combination of feelings. I feeling anxiety about the project and also in quite panic mode cause it starting soon. Flustered, irriated and confused about my relationship with him. I know some people might call this PMS?? or maybe not. I think it a woman symptons. :)
some of my close friends would know that i kinda of have a falling out with my 人字旁. Happen about 2 months ago. So we didnt meet for at least 2 months and only maybe communicate thru msn twice during the 2 mths. But cause my sister bought some things, meant to sell at his shop. so i have to meet him as my sis is on holiday in hk. it feels weird esp after not seeing each other for a while. the feeling is like 'seem a lot of things to ask and say, but nothing seem to come out'. i know both of us just dont know how to start on that topic why we fall out.
His friend was around too. He even ask me why havent seen me for so long. Aks me if i have decided to abandon them. My answer was I'm busy'. But his friend dont believe. In the end, i have to tell him, you guys are very busy too mah. No time for me. Cause that what my 人字旁 will always say to me.
Out of the blue during our meeting, he said something about 'dating without commitments'. Said he only learn about it recently from friends. People priority changes as we aged. I think if i'm 5yrs younger, i would agree that's good. But for me, i like commitments. it equal to a sense of security, a sense of peace. I'm tired. very tired of this more than a friend, less than a girlfriend sort of relationship.
Monday, September 10, 2007
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
my life so far
My friends have been very anxious and excited for my love life. haha. thanks everyone for their concern.
Sometimes he can be quite a idiot. It 2.48am now and i'm still talking to him online. And he still in office working. Such a workholic. yes, i do nag at him for working so late. but i know it cant be helped cause its his own business. but there still times when i feel very neglected. THAT WHY I SAY HE'S A IDIOT. haha...
For some who dun know what happened. here's the story.
Scenario
I was driving back to his place after supper. On way back home, he told me this:-
B: actually, k was thinking of naming the shop, 'W' after the main shop. But i scare you...
W: scare i misunderstood...
*silence*
W: mnn.. ya sure will misunderstood if that person knows you and me.
B: ya, people will say you are the 老板娘.
W: mnn.. 老板娘...i guess so.
B: then i should give u a 名份。
*LONG SILENCE*
Seriously, i was a bit shocked and dont know what to say. Cause he is someone who quite careful with his words and esp words like these. i've known him for so long and he has not said something like that to me at all. Some of my guy friends thinks he is testing his grounds, looking at my response. cause we been friends for so long, he dont want to shoot himself in the foot. My girl friends thinks it a sign and say i'm stupid not to ask him when is he giving me the 名份 at that time.
Now its seem difficult to start the topic again. cause he been so busy with his new shop that we seldom get to meet. He always telling to rest more, esp after my production.
i quite happy at how things turn out. Friends have been bugging me to ask him what he means but i think i rather take my time. he and i are comfortable with the current situation, then i think it fine. We not bf/gf in name, but it feels like... at least we take the heart to tell each other impt things abt what happened to us daily and each other whereabouts. I have become someone who he can share his thoughts, his worries, his happiness with. That's enough for now. I'm contented. :)
Sometimes he can be quite a idiot. It 2.48am now and i'm still talking to him online. And he still in office working. Such a workholic. yes, i do nag at him for working so late. but i know it cant be helped cause its his own business. but there still times when i feel very neglected. THAT WHY I SAY HE'S A IDIOT. haha...
For some who dun know what happened. here's the story.
Scenario
I was driving back to his place after supper. On way back home, he told me this:-
B: actually, k was thinking of naming the shop, 'W' after the main shop. But i scare you...
W: scare i misunderstood...
*silence*
W: mnn.. ya sure will misunderstood if that person knows you and me.
B: ya, people will say you are the 老板娘.
W: mnn.. 老板娘...i guess so.
B: then i should give u a 名份。
*LONG SILENCE*
Seriously, i was a bit shocked and dont know what to say. Cause he is someone who quite careful with his words and esp words like these. i've known him for so long and he has not said something like that to me at all. Some of my guy friends thinks he is testing his grounds, looking at my response. cause we been friends for so long, he dont want to shoot himself in the foot. My girl friends thinks it a sign and say i'm stupid not to ask him when is he giving me the 名份 at that time.
Now its seem difficult to start the topic again. cause he been so busy with his new shop that we seldom get to meet. He always telling to rest more, esp after my production.
i quite happy at how things turn out. Friends have been bugging me to ask him what he means but i think i rather take my time. he and i are comfortable with the current situation, then i think it fine. We not bf/gf in name, but it feels like... at least we take the heart to tell each other impt things abt what happened to us daily and each other whereabouts. I have become someone who he can share his thoughts, his worries, his happiness with. That's enough for now. I'm contented. :)
Friday, May 25, 2007
updates
just finish sassy neighbour season 3. It was a very tiring shoot. Fell sick 2 days after production wrap. I have about 2 weeks before my next project starts. These are my goals for these 2 weeks.
1. clear all the boxes in my room
2. have a steamboat / small open house for all my friends
3. wash and vacuumn my car
4. bring my car for servicing
5. go for a short holiday
6. Oops.. forgot, i got to buy a pair of shoes for my cousin wedding. maybe a dress too
Am i being too ambitious? Nope.. i think i'm fine.
1. clear all the boxes in my room
2. have a steamboat / small open house for all my friends
3. wash and vacuumn my car
4. bring my car for servicing
5. go for a short holiday
6. Oops.. forgot, i got to buy a pair of shoes for my cousin wedding. maybe a dress too
Am i being too ambitious? Nope.. i think i'm fine.
I changing back to Blogspot
I dont know why wordpress kept logging me out of it. So i decide to switch back to blogspot.
Here my new address www.weiweilee.blogspot.com
see ya
Here my new address www.weiweilee.blogspot.com
see ya
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