你为什么会喜欢我?

I was asked once before this question, 你为什么会喜欢我？
I really want to tell him the true answer to that question. But in the end, I didn't. If i had the chance again, this is what i would say.

我喜欢你因为你是你。喜欢你是没有任何理由的，也没有为什么。如果真的要一个理由，我想应该是你对我的好，你对我的细心。我喜欢和你在一起的时间，你给我的那份热情(warmth to my heart) ，那份说不出的快乐。

或许这就叫做爱情。

my new car!!

THis is my new car!! hehehe.... license plate no Sxx2448k. Remember to buy 4D hor. Win more. hehehe....
so happy abt my new car except that means i have to save save save. but that alright... cause i can dun buy new clothes, cds, shoes and bags. no more impulse buying lor. also, i want to accessories my car but leh... i dun know what. maybe a tissue box cover, a mini car dustbin. Any suggestion ppl?

The car I going to get!

Yes! So exciting! I'm going to get myself a red hyundai getz. I went to test drive it yesterday and WOW! i like it! :)
Now I doing my calculations whether i can afford it or not. Most likely i will only be getting next mth cause need to clear most of my credit card bill first. See la... *shake head* chuck up on credit card bill is no good for you. *shake head*

BUT then, YEAP!!!! getting a red chilli padi car. hahaha... suit my feisty character. Those who knows me well will know that true. hehehe... they will tell you NOT to get me on the wrong side, if not, u be in trouble... trouble. My most recent incident is telling a uncle off for hitting my dad car in a 'scolding tone'.

Alright.. i got to go get ready to go out for VO.
BYE!

Day @ sentosa

see... Ginger ears goes back when she is scared. :)





yeewei, sulyn, travis and VJ bought ginger, pug, k'lyn together with other bull terriers (in total there 5of them, i think) to sentosa. dogs and humans had lots of fun. Ginger is super afraid of water. i think it reminds her of bathing. Hahaha... so cute...

More photos of ginger

Ginger found a lobster on her way home from a walk with yeewei. See how much she loves that lobster. She stay with it for hours, not wanting to left the lobster alone. Maybe she thinking of eating it.



yeewei say that ginger always not smiling in the photos... there... here a photo with ginger smiling. happy, yeewei??



look how slim ginger was. SHE CAN STILL WEAR THAT BLACK COLLAR. i bet if ginger wear that collar now, she will choke to death. also, you notice how empty the garden looks. yap, *nod head* this was before my mum plants starts to fill up the place.



Tatata... ginger when she was a baby. CUTE, right?? Her ears are huge. Think sometimes, she purposely ignore me when i call her

Photos...

Huh? why are you pointing that thing towards me? huh?? huh?? Huh??????


I hungry.. pls feed me... Pls pls pls... I dont care about my figure. I just want to eat.


Aiyah....


Let me go up the sofa pls. I promise i try to blend it with the sofa.... see almost same color, right?


My friends and I at the Terry Fox Run on sunday, 18/9. We aiming to go for the Tuas/Malaysia run soon.

My new idea

I add this piece of metal to my wardrobe door to hang my ear rings. now, it so easy to see all my ear rings at a go. so cool! i love this idea.

Decision x 3... SIGH...

11am
havent blog for a long time. been busy with work. kinda getting bored with this project. it all calling, PR-ing... and more calling. i think i need another break. but i cant!! cause no $$$... hehehehe...

i feel that i might be coming to a career crossroads. cause it's time for me to decide what i really want to do. Freelance or full time...if full time, then with which company... movies or TV.. But i was say that the idea of creating a own show is more exciting than all the other options. but that would means doing freelance and it means not very sure when the next pay cheque will come. that kinda risky considering my lifestyle. hahaha.

4.05pm
i been writing this blog entry since this morning. Cant seem to finish cause i seem to have lots to say. but dun know what to say. contradicting right? i been like this these few weeks. confused, dunno what i want. DAMN!! cant be like this for long. But i know 1 thing for sure, i want to slim down. been having cravings since last week. i know it very very bad for me. i feel i have become fatter. so i make up my mind. after tonight buffet, i shall go brisk walk everyday. Fat woman no more!!

i feel the burden is off

I think a woman instinct is very right. What i wrote previously abt my feelings abt him was spot on. i finally took a chance and ask him. people only die once, right? Well true is... we will remain as very good frens. that alright with me. at least i know an answer. feel much much lighter now, like a burden is off. I glad.

sigh...

sigh... dun really know what to write. guess i'm in a confused and frustrated stage. confused cause i still dun know how he feels. frustrated cause i dun seem to be able to bring myself to talk to him about it. some say to be able to love someone is a blessing. but i think to be love by someone is better. at least you dont have to face the anguish of rejection from him.

i guess my feelings now is that i really want to know an answer. but deep down inside, i know that maybe he only wants to be friends now. cause career is important to him. but i want to know have he like me before.....

Luv this pic

I took this pic when I was in france, Nice... Love this pic. Need to go out now. Will tell u more abt my trip to France and Italy.

Quote

“When I was a kid, my father had this dog that started to get all weak and sickly. He takes it to the vet, he examines it and says a maggot must have laid eggs in the dog's butt. The baby maggots have crawled up, now they've started to grow, and eventually they're gonna eat the dog alive from the inside. He says it should be put to sleep, because it's an old dog anyway. But father won't do it. He takes the dog home, he puts it on the bed, he reaches up into the dog, picking out the maggots with his finger, one by one. It takes him all night, but he gets every last one. That dog outlived my father. That's love, Sam.”
                                               Quote from ' Addicted To Love'

Tioman Trip

I went to Tioman Genting Beach with a group of friends the week before. We meet on the job when we were doing 'I not stupid 2'. We stayed at Tropical Coral Inn Resort. Had lots of fun. The 'resort' where we were staying have only the very basic stuffs. The usual aircon, hot water, bed BUT no phone, no TV, no fridge. But no complains man, cause for 4 days 3 nights, we only spend $300 for every single shit. So, during the day, we swim, snorkel, suntanning {although a lot of ppl who saw me these few days, say i not dark leh. THAT CAUSE WHEN I WAS THERE, THERE NO SUN!! aiyah.... so irriating right. But what to do?, I cant control Mr SUN :( } Anyway, during the night, we normally just vege out, drink wine, listen to music at the beach. Super chill out and damn relaxing. I fell alseep many times when i was sitting at the beach at night. Here some photos from the trip.


My resort @ Tioman

Tioman Genting Beach
My Friends on the trip
My Friends on the trip
Sunset @ Tioman Beach. Nice right?
The 3 girls
Cats in Tioman. The cats there are all ginger colored. Cute huh. :)

The importance of retail therapy

ARRRHHHHHH!!!

i think i suffering from 'serious in need of retail therapy' symptoms. After filming for more than 1 mth with only 5 days rest in between, i didnt get a chance to buy anything. only work, sleep, eat the whole month. i need to buy something, anything even if it just a bottle of shampoo.

that when the problem starts, i'm starting to think that i want/need/MUST buy a PSP or any handheld console to ease my 'illness', if not i will die from the frustrations. some say this is all an excuse. maybe yes, maybe no. i DONT care. I listing out mentally in my mind all the pros of buying a psp, ignoring the cons factors.

Horoscope. Do you believe in it?

Do you believe in horoscope? I used to read it and forget about it. But recently, my horoscope reading has been quite true. Take today for example, this is what my horoscope says.

""If you're worrying about what others will think, it's time to stop. When you center yourself and your concerns on what's happening in your own heart, you'll start making some serious progress. ""

I did what i believe i will not do normally. Cause I'm always too concern about what others will think of me. Today, I took the step to tell him that i do remember he is leaving and told him to take care. Say what I feel in my heart. Yap, maybe it does make some progress. cause he reply my sms very quickly and he sms me again before he got on the plane, telling me he leaving and ask me to 'take care'.

He might have sms to other ppl as well. But i only concern that he remembers me, remember that I do care. That is good enough for me now. I think I am a happier person if I have less or no expectations of him. Maybe lots of you will feel it not right, but i'm contented.

In case some of you are curious, I did not have a chance to ask him. Maybe it fated... maybe it a chance for us to know each other better first... maybe we are not meant to be... let's fate take it own course. ''Love is very strange. You will find love when you are not looking'', from anonymous person.

As for now, I will concentrate on my movie project while he do his job. And we meet up again when both of us are done with our projects.

Do you like to cook?

Do you like to cook? I do. I like the process of cooking, like the cutting, chopping etc. But I hate to clean up after eating. (so, normally when i cook, someone else will do the washing). After all the hard work I go thru to cook, my friends appreciate it and makan up all the food without saying a word. (That means they are enjoy themselves too much to tallk) I think that is the best moment and I LOVE to see my friends enjoy what I cook.

I love to cook italian food. When i was in Italy few years back, I could have spaghetti in all different shapes, sizes, sauces almost every meal. it was just splendid, YUMMMY!!! :) (makes me hungry just talking about it)

my sis has been asking me to make lasagna. but i always dont have the time. Think one of these weekends i should try it. Anyone volunteer to be guinea pig? hahaha... I can think of some ppl already.


okie, beside italian food, i want to learn how to make chinese food la, thai food la, BBQ la.... and lots more. OOPSS!!! 1 very important thing is to learn how to make, very very good desert... Always good to wind down a good meal with some desert... YUMMY!!!

all these food talks making me hungry... going to check out more recipes to try... see ya!

相爱

每当我们真心拥抱，

就能感觉爱情对彼此的意义

Thoughts...

相愛不只是走進對方的生活更要能走入彼此的生命
喜歡，就是淡淡的愛
愛，就是深深的喜歡

Do you agree with the sentence above?
Being in a relationship takes lots of understanding and tolerance. it takes 2 to work out a good relationship. When 2 people are together, they will bring out the best in each other. I sure everyone have come across the time when u and ur special someone said the same thing at the same time? or when u were thinking of something and he/she said it out. This is called chemistry.

Maybe like what the sentence say, ''when you actually walk 'thru' each other life'', you will have that natural chemistry.

Wish all the couples out there happiness. And if you still single, may you find that someone who have that chemistry with you soon.

Buffy the vampire

From buffy the vampire -
You listen to me. (kneels in front of her) I've been alive a bit longer than you, and dead a lot longer than that. I've seen things you couldn't imagine, and done things I prefer you didn't. I don't exactly have a reputation for being a thinker. I follow my blood, which doesn't exactly rush in the direction of my brain. So I make a lot of mistakes, a lot of wrong bloody calls. (looks into her eyes) A 100+ years, and there's only one thing I've ever been sure of: you. (Buffy looks away; he reaches toward her face) Hey, look at me. I'm not asking you for anything. When I say, "I love you," it's not because I want you or because I can't have you. It has nothing to do with me. (a tear rolls down Buffy's cheek) I love what you are, what you do, how you try. I've seen your kindness and your strength. I've seen the best and the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are. You're a hell of a woman. You're the one, Buffy.

AHHHHHHH ...... !!!!!

I so pissed at myself. want to be angry with him but i always lost it when i see him. purposely make myself not to see him for a while, but i end up missing him. And i mean A LOT!!! AHHHH....!!!! this is so irritating. I mad at myself for giving in so much to him.
I really need to find an answer. But i think it going to be bad... sigh.. maybe i should not ask.

MEN are weird creatures?

Men are weird? or rather only SOME men are weird. Some men are too difficult to read while some are like an open book. 'he' is one of them. I cant read him at all. Dun know what he is thinking. Sometimes he very warm like a hot potato just out from oven. sometimes, he so cold. I wish i have a magic wand that can read his mind. Sigh... i getting tired and sick of this game.

I SAID IT!!! yeap!
i finally told them that i am quitting. feels a huge burden has been liften off my shoulders. my next step is to tell the boss. i know it going to be tough. but hey, i make up my mind... i will do it!
support me!

I love the look of my new blog

i love the look of my new blog.

at night, the light is dimmer
at night, the grass is blue
at night, the fire flies glimmer
and the stars are fair and true...

so nice words. i love the night. the sky is so beautiful with all the twinkle twinkle stars. when i was in australia, the stars all seem bigger and brighter. Imagine sitting on the beach at night with the one you love... the sound of the waves in the silent of the night... the smell of salty seawater... the stars twinkling away like diamonds in the sky... it oh so so romantic that i wish that i'm there now with my special someone, holding on to each other, lazing and contented with each other company.

i also love the rain, only when i'm indoors. Listening to rain drops falling is such a pleasure... it has such a calming effect. but walking in the rain alone is such a miserable thing to do. however, with that special someone besides me, i wish the rain will not stop so we can walk under the rain, sharing the small umbrella, holding on tightly to each other so that one will not get wet and fall ill. the notion of this 'walking under the rain' is so romantic too. and it such a old plot in movies to get two lovers together.

so sweet... :)
will continue to blog when inspiration visit again.